seek ye first

i've been praying lately that God would give me an insatiable hunger for Him. you know those times- when you're out running errands or at work or out with friends or whatever...suddenly you just want to rush home, grab your Bible, and be with Jesus. i love, love, love those times! lately though, unfortunately, i've been so busy and life has been passing so quickly that i haven't had many of those times. i've been meeting with the Lord on the regular, but it feels shallow and flat on my end of things. one of my new year's resolutions was to journal every single day. i don't know about you, but when i journal, i journal prayers. as of late, my journals have been seriously lacking. they're full of "thanks for [whatever]," "it was a good day," "i'm excited for [whatever]." this just isn't okay with me. i want my journal to be a place where God reveals Himself to me and i'm able to process with Him. i've been praying for that. i've been praying that He would light a fire in me and that my heart would burn for Him. last week at our worship night, my lovely roommate kk began to sing out this chorus:

the more you seek Him, the more you find Him

the more you find Him, the more you love Him

wow. talk about convicting. i totally realized that i wasn't seeking Him the way i'm called to. i wasn't searching for His passion, so i wasn't feeling His passion. it all makes so much sense now. since then, my journaling and prayer times have changed drastically. i've devoted time to reading His Word- i mean really reading it- and praying for extended periods of time. and, shockingly enough, the more i do all of this, the more hungry i am for Him. i encourage you to spend some real time with God today. rest in His presence and truly give Him all of you during that time. let go of distractions, let go of schedules. He's our King. He deserves our undivided, whole-hearted attention. 

"seek ye first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you." matthew 6:33